M.I.A.

someone save me…

The next 24 hours will be the most precious. I hope the next 24 hours will save me from insanity. I’ve never done anything so crazy before but I’m tired of waking up crying every morning. Three angels saved me today, this adventure was meant to be. I just have to make sure when I get back, I can’t have anymore of this craziness. I NEED to focus and no longer let my emotions get the most of me. I’m telling myself that this one Saturday is something I truly need to change everything.

I feel so alone :/

It’s crazy how homesick I am this time. It’s just so much harder to say goodbye this time and my crazy workload isn’t making it any better. I swear I just want to cry all the time but no one will understand :/ Everyone will just think I’m crazy. I’m normally a stronger person and I don’t resort to crying but I’ve been so emotional lately. Any little thing can just trigger a non-stop flow of tears. Although I am going to Long Beach this weekend to be with family, all I wish for is to be home with my boyfriend and my dog. I just want to see my boyfriend but not through a computer screen. 

I’m pretty miserable :/

These questions, these angry feelings, these impulsive thoughts, I just want all of it to disappear.

Why can’t it just go away? :P

I don’t know why but it still bothers me. Whenever I think about it, it makes me sad and pisses me off all over again. The millions of things I could’ve and should’ve said keep running through my mind.